1017 Studied, read, and wrote
🔍 Did some research on how to adjust my diet before next Sunday, the marathon day — seems like I have to eat more rice than usual.
⌚ Next Sunday is not only my race day but also my girlfriend’s, but she hasn’t run more than 5 km yet. I’m kind of worried about her, but I still believe she can do it, since the time limit is long enough — I guess.
💭 The new person sitting beside me makes me unable to calm down and do what I really want to do, so I just keep writing in English, which Japanese people aren’t usually good at, to make it look like I’m doing something important.
💡 I realized that today is already Friday, and I haven’t finished my summary from last week. I want to do it during work hours today.
🤩 09:50 Found a spot I want to visit someday — Underground Temple
📖 10:15 Looks like the rookie girl is very sleepy, so I decided to start reading Four Thousand Weeks Part Ⅱ Beyond Control Chapter 7 We Never Really Have Time
Notes:
The obsessive planner, essentially, is demanding certain reassurances from the future – but the future isn’t the sort of thing that can ever provide the reassurance he craves, for the obvious reason that it’s still in the future.
You only ever get to feel certain about the future once it’s already turned into the past.
The assumption that time is something we can possess or control is the unspoken premise of almost all our thinking about the future, our planning and goal-setting and worrying. So it’s a constant source of anxiety and agitation, because our expectations are forever running up against the stubborn reality that time isn’t in our possession and can’t be brought under our control.
Despite our total lack of control over any of these occurrences, each of us made it through to this point in our lives – so it might at least be worth entertaining the possibility that when the uncontrollable future arrives, we’ll have what it takes to weather that as well. And that you shouldn’t necessarily even want such control, given how much of what you value in life only ever came to pass thanks to circumstances you never chose.
We treat our plans as though they are a lasso, thrown from the present around the future, in order to bring it under our command. But all a plan is – all it could ever possibly be – is a present-moment statement of intent. It’s an expression of your current thoughts about how you’d ideally like to deploy your modest influence over the future. The future, of course, is under no obligation to comply.
📖 12:00 Finished reading Chapter 7
🖥️ 13:30 Started learning HTML5
🙃 15:20 I can’t concentrate on what I want to do.
🖥️ 16:50 Finished learning Chapter 3 and wrote Study Log #4
🏄♀️ Checked other people’s blogs
🖋️ Wrote in my diary